Health in 2011

This year has not been a good year for me health-wise. My birthday is January 1st & I spent it with a cold that would end up lasting almost the whole month. February started off great, felt fine & got to spend a fab weekend in San Diego with the boyfriend. About the last week of February I started to feel lightheaded and a have a panicky feeling. My heart would also beat fast & sometimes I would become out of breath. It would happen at random times. Maybe it's like a mini panic attack but it's so random, it's not like I'm doing something where I would be having a panic attack. At first I thought maybe I was pregnant since lightheadedness can be a symptom & since I've never been pregnant before, I don't know what it feels like. But then I got my period so that was a relief but made me wonder what could be the problem. Somedays I feel fine, there was a week in March where I didn't feel it at all. I'm usually fine in the morning and as the day goes on, it gets worse. I cut out caffeine since I thought that could be it. I also thought it could be anxiety & nervousness. I graduated college in December and I had hoped to have a job by now and working towards my future. I've got my student loans to start paying back in June & I have no job so that's been bothering me. At night when I'm trying to fall asleep it still bothers me, I'll close my eyes & start to feel dizzy so I have to keep them open until I fall asleep. I've been trying to relax and not worry but that doesn't really help. It's gotten to the point where I don't like to go out because I'm afraid I'll have one of those feelings and faint or something. If I keep busy, I can usually avoid having these feelings. So I've been trying to keep my hands busy so I can't let this feeling overwhelm me.

It still currently happens to me and today I finally went to the doctor. I told the doctor pretty much everything I wrote here and he had me do an EKG & a blood test. He says I could have a heart arrhythmia. He also had my blood tested for blood sugar, anemia, thyroid, and electrolytes. He said if those all come back normal than he would do more things to test my heart such as wearing a heart monitor for 24 hours. When he told me it could be a problem with my heart, I got worried, I hadn't even thought it could be that. I just thought it was anxiety or maybe I needed to eat better or something. I wasn't that scared before but now I'm more worried. Like I feel like I'm too young to be worrying about my heart and any serious problems. The doctor said he would call me & give me the results. I hope it all just turns out to be anxiety and nothing more serious.I just want to get to the bottom of this!

Also last month, I slammed my thumb in the car door & my nail turned black. I asked the doctor about it & he said my nail is going to fall off  :( That will not be a pretty picture when that happens.